It was on January 18th was when we met & I fell for you. I wasn't sure if you fell for me, but all I remember was that I looked ugly. L-sized t-shirt & shorts was all I wore. That day was a day like never before. "Love at first sight"
Yes, I believed in that shit & I still do actually. I know I'm pathetic. You don't even have to confront me about it. I still wore braces at the time so I bet you thought I was the ugly loser. I don't have to hear it from you. I know.
I was head over heels for you when we got together. Although I did have doubts because it was too good to be true.I forgot about it for a while, but the thought just kept coming back. Then, I checked your Myspace.
You have many friends who're girls not surprisingly & I had the feeling that one or more of them was the girlfriend too. I was worried. My babes told me not to be, as long as he still loves me. I had more doubts then.
Long story short for the middle part: we fought, never talked for 2 months & I went there. It was on August 18th that I came by to see you. I apologised & all you said was "It's okay" even when I wasn't at fault.
I went there again & that was on August 31st. It was also the last time I saw you. I talked to a few of your friends, but one of them was really nice. He was married & had children, although I pitied him a little.
Because the payment for a lifeguard doesn't sound enough for a guy with a family. I didn't talk to you much so that was a bummer. But you escorting me out when I
had to go back... was sweet of you.
I hugged you when you were shirtless & hell yeah was I happy. But the kiss you gave me on the cheek left me feeling butterflies in my stomach. I jumped when we parted & felt good when I got home. I was in love with you all over again.
I'm skipping alot because the rest doesn't matter as much. You should know that I've always been such a klutz. A few days ago, I looked into her Myspace albums.
Guess what I found? A picture of you kissing her.
Of course I was devastated. No, I am devastated. I acted strong & held back my tears, but I'm not as tough as I thought I was. I keep complaining & sadly, it's what I'm great at.
It's always been you who're in my thoughts & dreams. Now, things are just not what they seem. I'm such a loser not being able to let go of you. Even when I had the strength from those I love, it's still not enough.
In a small way, I don't care she's the other girlfriend. As long as you remember that I was the loser who loved you, the one who annoyed you & the shadow who can't seem to stop following you around.
Which was why I took that picture that's my new blog picture. On the right it says "She's been stuck in her world of pain ever since he torn her into pieces. "I've fallen & became the pathetic one now", she said."
While on my cheek it says "I was the loser who loved you" like what I've stated before. So you see, it looks like I can never get over you. Why? I'm just being lame. You're stronger than that! That statement of me was never true.
And all I want to say to you now, even when I know you don't know about this blog of mine, I love you. Forever & always, Lee. I'm keeping my promise on waiting for you. Sue me.
shn knows she sounds like a total weirdo
Another new day after another typical break-up
Yes, I believed in that shit & I still do actually. I know I'm pathetic. You don't even have to confront me about it. I still wore braces at the time so I bet you thought I was the ugly loser. I don't have to hear it from you. I know.
I was head over heels for you when we got together. Although I did have doubts because it was too good to be true.I forgot about it for a while, but the thought just kept coming back. Then, I checked your Myspace.
You have many friends who're girls not surprisingly & I had the feeling that one or more of them was the girlfriend too. I was worried. My babes told me not to be, as long as he still loves me. I had more doubts then.
Long story short for the middle part: we fought, never talked for 2 months & I went there. It was on August 18th that I came by to see you. I apologised & all you said was "It's okay" even when I wasn't at fault.
I went there again & that was on August 31st. It was also the last time I saw you. I talked to a few of your friends, but one of them was really nice. He was married & had children, although I pitied him a little.
Because the payment for a lifeguard doesn't sound enough for a guy with a family. I didn't talk to you much so that was a bummer. But you escorting me out when I
had to go back... was sweet of you.
I hugged you when you were shirtless & hell yeah was I happy. But the kiss you gave me on the cheek left me feeling butterflies in my stomach. I jumped when we parted & felt good when I got home. I was in love with you all over again.
I'm skipping alot because the rest doesn't matter as much. You should know that I've always been such a klutz. A few days ago, I looked into her Myspace albums.
Guess what I found? A picture of you kissing her.
Of course I was devastated. No, I am devastated. I acted strong & held back my tears, but I'm not as tough as I thought I was. I keep complaining & sadly, it's what I'm great at.
It's always been you who're in my thoughts & dreams. Now, things are just not what they seem. I'm such a loser not being able to let go of you. Even when I had the strength from those I love, it's still not enough.
In a small way, I don't care she's the other girlfriend. As long as you remember that I was the loser who loved you, the one who annoyed you & the shadow who can't seem to stop following you around.
Which was why I took that picture that's my new blog picture. On the right it says "She's been stuck in her world of pain ever since he torn her into pieces. "I've fallen & became the pathetic one now", she said."
While on my cheek it says "I was the loser who loved you" like what I've stated before. So you see, it looks like I can never get over you. Why? I'm just being lame. You're stronger than that! That statement of me was never true.
And all I want to say to you now, even when I know you don't know about this blog of mine, I love you. Forever & always, Lee. I'm keeping my promise on waiting for you. Sue me.
shn knows she sounds like a total weirdo
Another new day after another typical break-up
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