Could It Be?

Let me explain. The first time I met you was like, what? Few years ago? You, your dad & the rest of your family came to one of my grandparents' anniversaries. That was how we met. I talked to you, your other brothers & your adorable little sister.

What did I talk to you & your brothers about? Nothing really. I just wanted the songs y'all had in your phones XP Yes, I was THAT desperate to have songs. But all I asked was you & your brothers' birthdays, age & names. I bet I was weird to you back then, huh? XP

Then we met again at my late aunt's funeral. You told me not to cry but I did after you said it. You were sweet enough to hug & comfort me =) Your mom was crying much worse than me so I asked you to comfort her too. Come on. She's your mom la, sayang. Don't hesitate to hug her even if you're a guy.

You & your family went to my house after that. You guys ate a little & went back too soon. I still have your number from the 1st time we met. So of course, I could always text you.

We met again when we attended the tahlil at the mosque near my house. You wanted to send me credit so that we could text since I was out of credit XP Again, that was sweet of you =)

We've been texting alot ever since. You had a girlfriend but that didn't really surprise me much. But I never knew she could be so evil to you. Like I said before, you deserve better.

Obviously, you guys broke up because there was a whole misunderstanding & such. You were upset so I was worried duh. You called me after I texted you "What happened?".

You let it all out while I just sat at the other end listening.

I never thought that we'd be this close. As in like, really close. I pretty much know you better than your brothers & sister. Now, about what you told me last night. Now THAT I really never thought would ever happen. Well, you can't expect me to be some kind of mind-reader or a psychic.

Seriously, you really do? Now that I'm thinking about it, I tend to fall for guys like you. To the readers, no. I'm not talking about his personality or attitude or looks. I'm talking about something else & I'm sure y'all are smart enough to know what.

Everytime you call me, you'd lift my spirits & make me laugh no matter what. It may be what you're saying or your voice (which I doubt it) but you can really make me laugh. Doesn't matter whether you're making up some weird story that I'm in where I'm perfect like a princess or when I'm bald like a monk you said earlier, you could still make me laugh.

No one has ever made me laugh so much in a few days straight in such a LONG time. Really. I can't remember the last person who did but still, it's been really long. So, right now, I'm wondering to myself if this feeling is real.

Am I just lying to myself again like what I did before? Am I really feeling this? I really can't think but for now, all I can say is: I think I've fallen for you. Seriously. Not only do you not fail at making me laugh, you never fail at making me smirk either.

There's something about you that I like about other than your sweetness & smile, your kindness & care. I don't know. It might be just me, but it also might be...

Okay. I'm getting out of hand now. I guess I'm gonna stop here. I'm not sure if you're reading this since you've read my blog before but if you are, damn do I feel embarrassed.

Yes, I can be very shy towards men. Such a typical, pathetic girl I am. Well, I'll end it here. There's nothing else for me to talk about.

I'm just waiting for your call.

shn feels a little confused

Could this feeling be true? Could it really be you? Gosh. I don't know.