A Little Better

Hey there! I can't really explain my 'insanity' but all I can say is that every minute I'll practically think of suicide & I'll be on the brink to actually throw my life away just like that. Man, how pathetic can I get?

Well, David Archuleta songs certainly made me feel better =) Seriously. Those videos of him I posted made me wanna see more. So I did & they made me feel better. Who would've thought David Archuleta songs could reach deep into your soul & calm both your mind & yourself? =D

Anyways, yeah. I'm a little better I guess. I'm practically wasting my time not studying for SPM & all. Plus, it's within 5 days. Gah! Fuck SPM.

Got a lot to do after that. Although I'm sad that I'm not able to go prom since I'll be in Mekkah TT~TT Owh well. I guess it's good for me. Plus, Gowri & Iylia planned a mini prom/farewell thing so that's good enough I hope. Owh yeah.

Gowri! I won't be around during your birthday! I'll still be in Mekkah! I'm so sorry!!

SORRY!! At least I bought you your birthday present, right? You should be thankful for that at least which you are since you thanked me so many times for buying you that.

Since I've been 'emo-ing' & not been filling you guys in with anything, lemme start with what my grandma on my mom's side gave me.

She bought me a 'phone bag' which is really cute & a blue heart-shaped necklace. Wow! Both my favourite colour AND my favourite shape! ~♥ Other than that, nothing much really. Owh yeah. 2 days ago (since it's 12:02 in the morning on Friday now) I couldn't help myself but look for his Myspace profile.

Nothing new since his picture's still the same. Then I searched for HER Myspace profile. Guess what I found? A picture of her hugging him. I can't help but miss him & yet, I feel happy for them. In a small way though.

Even though he was a jerk for cheating on me, I forgive him. I dunno why. I just forgive him like that. I miss him. I really do. But I guess, all I want to happen between us is that I hope we see each other again. Nothing else. Just hope SHE'S not there to ruin the moment of the reunion.

Other than that, I'm watching Zero no Tsukaima: Princess no Rondo now. Will be studying later I hope. Can't bring myself to do so but I've got to try.

If y'all wanna know so bad (the ones who doesn't know I mean) , the guy I was talking about is Lee. He's my ex-boyfriend, 21-years-old, tall, handsome, has a rockin' body (can't help it XP) , knows how to scuba dive, dance & surf. So yeah. I guess that's about it. Well, gotta go now. There's school tomorrow.

Goodnight, y'all! Take care!

shn is thinking of buying that mug... hmm

So I put my hands up, They're playing my song, The butterflies fly away, Nodding my head like yeah, Moving my hips like yeah~