Lesson Learned?

Hey there. I just watched this on HBO. Awesome movie. Didn't watch much of the first one. Anyway, about the title, I'm pretty sure I learned something. From the movie, I mean.

Main thing I learned, friends come & go. Not that I've never heard of it or anything but, there are times I can be a little too desperate to have company that's not family related.

Why? I don't really get along with my family. I mean, sure. I have some who I'm close with but not many. Most of the time, they get on my nerves. I just can't stand them.

But when I think about it, I love them too & yet, there are times when I can be so heartless & would actually dare to hurt them. On purpose. I'm just saying here. I'm not even sure if I'm a somebody in my family.

I feel like such an outcast being around them. They get along & I don't feel like I do. Which is why I'm closer to my friends. They're the ones who feel more like family to me.

I've never told my family anything personal nor have I told them about my major problems. Well, another reason to that is because they'd just give me the kind of answer I didn't need & leave it at that.

Leaving me helpless & doubtful. So yeah. My friends are my family. The ones I'm close with & a few long-time-no-see friends too. Other than that, I'm not sure what else I learned.

Owh. Lately, I've been feeling quite a distance between a friend or two. I don't really feel like mentioning them so, don't ask me about it. Please. The more you want to know about it, the more I'll be pissing you off.

Fine. One of them isn't a friend of mine. Well, at least not to him we aren't. He refers to me as his pet-sister, I guess. I dunno. It might've been something I said or he's actually busy.

I can't put my finger on it. But I don't like the gap that's beginning to form between us at the moment. And these days, I've been craving for Kelana Seafood's famous Sweet 'n' Sour Fish!

I can't help it! They're so good & I'd do anything to get my stomach filled with it! Whoops. Too much info there. As to my friend, I'm not sure what we are to each other anymore.

We both changed but I never thought it'll turn out to be like this. And there are times when I'd really love to say, fuck change. Or maybe it's just me? Since it's so bloody hard for me to JUST go out.

God dammit! I know the world's no longer safe! But can't I at least get a life?! Or am I suppose to wait until I get married? Hmm?! *sighs* This is probably the only thing I hate about my life.

Anyways, I timed myself for blogging so that I don't waste my time doing other stuff while leaving the window opened, forgetting what to type out. So yeah. I'll blog when I have something to talk about again. Cya~

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Naturally - Selena Gomez