A Supposed-To-Be Wish Come True

Saturday, December 12th - At 1:54 a.m., 33 minutes after seeing the first shooting star, I made my 2nd wish on the second shooting star. I was on the balcony of one of the rooms at Awana Porto Malai, Langkawi.

It was the usual boring trip to same old, boring Langkawi. At least those two shooting stars I got to see made my day. Haha. My 2nd wish is pretty pathetic. I'm not gonna tell you what I wished for.

If you wanna know so badly, ask Chiqah or May. Well, May only knows the 2nd one. Chiqah knows both. So yeah. EXACTLY a week after that on December 19th at 2 something in the morning, it was about to happen.

Until I ruined it -_- Yuuji asked me the question. Yes, THE question. Guess what I answered? "Serious?" Wow. Wasn't I smart? *tch The most idiotic & stupid thing I've ever done in my whole entire life.

Yes, Timmy. Crap, or should I say.. shit, happens. But this particular 'crap' was eff-ing unnecessary for me to do. "What's done is done la. Why are you getting so hyped up about it?"

Well, it's because that was THE most bodoh thing I've done. Plus, it was him (finally) who asked. Not some guy I've just met few weeks or months ago whom I don't have feelings for.

For the first time in my life, somebody I'm in love with asked me THE question. And what happened? Shit happened & it was all because of me. Sure. I can just call him up & talk about it.

But I don't want to. Why? Because I'm scared it'll turn out to be a total disaster & worried his feelings will get hurt entirely somehow. I can be very considerate of others, aite? So don't bug me about it.

Also, I feel like cancelling my real birthday celebration. Not in the mood for anything right now. Hope I am when The Last Night's around the corner. Crap. Speaking of that, I haven't bought a mask -_-

Great. Just great. That's all I've got. I've got nothing else to say. Ciao~

shn is very pissed with herself

No matter what, you'll always be my one & only Yuuji.. love you