Well, I was rotting at home today. Didn't go anywhere. It's been almost a week I've been avoiding food during the day & eat a little at night.
Since I'm not allowed to exercise alone & whatnot. I decided to loosen up so, I drove to the shoplots.
Wanted to buy something but, changed my mind. Almost got in trouble. Turned around & headed for home.
It was raining. The moment I was at the front gate, I couldn't help but feel so in pain & spaced out.
I got to my senses & went inside. I turned on the lights of the guestroom, locked the door & started screaming.
Tears were trickling down my face. I was surprised my maid didn't hear me. Then I decided to go outside.
Yeah, I went outside under the rain. I just stood there & stared blankly. After that, I sat down for God knows how long & got wet.
Went inside again & to my room this time. Locked the door & while the rain's thunder sang, I screamed again.
I screamed like there's no tomorrow & cried so hard. I felt hurt, depressed & emo again. It lasted for 15 minutes or so.
I stopped instantly. Suddenly, I grabbed my book, pencil lead & colour pencils to start drawing.
It calms me down these days whenever I feel that way. It's 10:56 pm now. Gotta go & eat dinner. So long, world..
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