you have no idea how much the movie "Dear John" reminds me of us in many hidden yet few obvious ways. Every night before I close my eyes & fall into a deep sleep, I always think about the things that happened when everything seemed perfect. It all feels so surreal to me, like a distant dream.
But knowing reality, it is real. It feels real. It might take me 3-6 months to be myself again. Maybe longer, or shorter if possible. As much as I want to move on & start from scratch, your name can never be erased from my memories or my heart.
Somehow, you made it permanent. If you're one of my many mistakes in life, then you're definitely the best one. Everything around me reminds me of you. No matter where I go, who I'm with or where I look, you seem to always be there with me.
Sometimes I wonder, what actually happened? What went wrong? But of course, it won't make much of a difference now that it's like this. People say we were never meant to be, people say there are boys better than you.
But to me, no one can top you off or be better than you because that's who you are. Who can change that? I know it's not me. I can really never bring myself to hate you regardless of what had already happened. And so, I forgive you. What's the point of living life when there's someone you hate?
Whether you're reading this or not, just let me say,"Hey, good luck with whatever life throws at you because I'm sure nothing can make you fall until you let it. Take good care of yourself & I hope you're happy.".
Well, it's your final semester this year & when your holidays start, mine will end. I'll be in college by the month of July believe it or not. Finally, a new chapter in life & you started without me. Guess you've got a pretty good beginning, huh? All I know is, it's never the end.
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