Dear Dean,

lately, my phone's been really quiet. Why? Well, you were the only one I texted the most since July 2009. But since THAT happened, it got quieter & quieter. Everytime I hear my message tone, I'd automatically think it's you even when it isn't. Now, everything's like how it was before you came into my life, but different.

In what way you ask? I've got nothing to gossip about, nothing to talk about unless I go out & something weird happens. These days, all I do is sit & listen. I'm no longer talkative. The only topic I've got is the past & that's it. Sad really. Didn't think it'd make such a big impact on me.

Also, once I get into a car, I'll instantly listen to something on my phone & look up at the sky, appreciating the beauty of the clouds. Isn't that awkward? I'd take a million pictures of it if I had my own DSLR. These days when I'm alone, not only do I think alot & dwell into the surreal past.

I reminisce every single moment we spent together.. even those times when our only connection was through calls & text messages before there was even us. Out of all our outings, the one before we were together was truly my favourite. It was a day filled with lots of laughter & hidden love.

I may no longer be yours & you may no longer be mine, but we could at least be like how we were before that. Brother & sister. We were just as close then & I swear I miss your sister. Don't you miss mine? When she'd always ask you to carry her whenever you're around?

Especially your wonderful parents & my over-protective grandparents. Our families got along so well. Can those memorable days be forgotten in a blink of an eye? Like it all never happened? No. Not for me. Going back to those days sometimes make me smile & laugh.

But at most times, it makes me sad, knowing it's all gone in an instant. I don't get how some people can forget the past like it was erased from their very memory. Anyways, enough about me & my moments of sulking around. How've you been? Well I hope.

Oh wait. You're busy with your studies & her. Haha. Don't mind me. Why bother worrying about someone who never mattered to you from the very start, right? Hmm. I guess this is my very last post to you. Enjoy life as it is, dear. It's too short & important for it to be taken seriously.