"1 year left =)"
"Ngeh... must you remind me?"
"I don't know. Because you don't have feelings like what I feel towards you."
"Okay... fine. What if I do...? What then?"
"What do you think you'll do?"
"*tch I don't know... I was asking you what'll happen if I did"
"I'll find you & I'll do whatever it takes."
"... whatever it takes to what?"
"Ada la."
"-_- Okay"
"What you'll do?"
"I. Have. No idea... why?"
"Just asking"
"Okay"
"Okay"
"Do you like me or do you like like me...?"
"I like like like you. How about you?"
"I like you... but as a friend. No, as a pet-bro..."
"Okay."
*utter silence for almost 10 minutes*
"Don't you feel sleepy yet...?"
"I'm looking at UK map. You go to sleep. I got so much to think of."
"Okay... get some sleep soon though. Don't want to affect your health now, do you...?"
"I'll be fine."
"Hope so... goodnight, sleep well & sweet dreams, sayang. Take care, okay...?"
"Okay. Nites"
*almost 30 minutes later*
"Don't call me sayang ok? I'm your pet-bro. Not sweet"
"Why not...? You're not the only one who's been called sayang by me"
"Just don't. Alrite?"
"*sighs* Are you pissed...?"
"No, I'm not. Just don't. Ok? My emotions are not stable right now. Not because of you. It's something else. Gotta go. Ciao."
I called you at 4:30 a.m. to wake you up for sahur, but you didn't answer. 10 minutes later I called you again.
"*phone sounds* *click*"
So, I started texting you.
"You picked up & hung up... okay. Just wanted to wake you... time for sahur. Bye"
Okay. So now I know that you not only like me, you're in love with me. *pfft Wow. Yipee for me. We were fine yesterday morning. But then our conversation got a little awkward at night, which ended up to sound like a feud. I never said okay when you asked me to stop calling you sayang.
I won't thats for sure. Maybe all this is my fault for calling you sayang & how would I know your emotions aren't stable because of me? What if you were just saying that so I wouldn't terasa?
I won't know. After reading your blog 2 nights ago, I knew there were many things you never told me. I didn't really mind much because we've only known each other just recently. You said you were fine when I asked if you were alright. I was making sure & you said "Yes, I am. I've got you". *tch Was that one of your charming ways to make me feel needed?
C'mon!
Tell me if I'm annoying. Tell me if I'm asking you too much. Tell me if I'm hurting you unintentionally. Tell me if I'm taking your space. Tell me if I'm in your way. I'll get it. I'm sure I can take it. Don't worry about me... I won't be the obstacle that stops you in your life anymore.
I'll leave you alone if you want me out of your life. You just have to tell me, then I'm gone. Easy as that.
I would've known I was merely the obstacle in your way. You broke up with your bitch girlfriend 2 days ago, liked me when you were still in that wretched relationship & look where it got to us.
In the end, I was just your comfort zone. Nothing else.
You'll never know how I really feel. Not after the tiny feud. Not like you'll be reading this but, you wanna know how I feel about you? Okay.
I do like you. No. Correction. I'm in LOVE with you. What will I do? Owh. I dunno. These few days have been driving me mad that I was thinking I could keep you to myself. Because of you, I can't even think straight in whatever I do. You're somehow the obstacle in my life too but then, I didn't mind.
Because of you, I couldn't sleep last night after what happened. Why? I was blaming myself like crazy of course. Now since I already ate for sahur & I'm practically starving to death because I ate a little, I have a friggin' huge headache.
Just when I wanted to go Subang Parade with my parents & buy me a pair of earrings. I think I'll be the zombie of the group since I'll be having panda eyes (eye bags duh) for the rest of the day if I don't catch up on my sleep soon. How do you think I feel, huh? How 'well' do you think I'm taking this? I'm trying to get the words out of my head just for this since it was bothering me an hour ago.
Well, I've said what I need to. I need my sleep now. Goodnight.
shn has mixed feelings
I was getting along with my life just fine until you happened
"Ngeh... must you remind me?"
"I don't know. Because you don't have feelings like what I feel towards you."
"Okay... fine. What if I do...? What then?"
"What do you think you'll do?"
"*tch I don't know... I was asking you what'll happen if I did"
"I'll find you & I'll do whatever it takes."
"... whatever it takes to what?"
"Ada la."
"-_- Okay"
"What you'll do?"
"I. Have. No idea... why?"
"Just asking"
"Okay"
"Okay"
"Do you like me or do you like like me...?"
"I like like like you. How about you?"
"I like you... but as a friend. No, as a pet-bro..."
"Okay."
*utter silence for almost 10 minutes*
"Don't you feel sleepy yet...?"
"I'm looking at UK map. You go to sleep. I got so much to think of."
"Okay... get some sleep soon though. Don't want to affect your health now, do you...?"
"I'll be fine."
"Hope so... goodnight, sleep well & sweet dreams, sayang. Take care, okay...?"
"Okay. Nites"
*almost 30 minutes later*
"Don't call me sayang ok? I'm your pet-bro. Not sweet"
"Why not...? You're not the only one who's been called sayang by me"
"Just don't. Alrite?"
"*sighs* Are you pissed...?"
"No, I'm not. Just don't. Ok? My emotions are not stable right now. Not because of you. It's something else. Gotta go. Ciao."
I called you at 4:30 a.m. to wake you up for sahur, but you didn't answer. 10 minutes later I called you again.
"*phone sounds* *click*"
So, I started texting you.
"You picked up & hung up... okay. Just wanted to wake you... time for sahur. Bye"
Okay. So now I know that you not only like me, you're in love with me. *pfft Wow. Yipee for me. We were fine yesterday morning. But then our conversation got a little awkward at night, which ended up to sound like a feud. I never said okay when you asked me to stop calling you sayang.
I won't thats for sure. Maybe all this is my fault for calling you sayang & how would I know your emotions aren't stable because of me? What if you were just saying that so I wouldn't terasa?
I won't know. After reading your blog 2 nights ago, I knew there were many things you never told me. I didn't really mind much because we've only known each other just recently. You said you were fine when I asked if you were alright. I was making sure & you said "Yes, I am. I've got you". *tch Was that one of your charming ways to make me feel needed?
C'mon!
Tell me if I'm annoying. Tell me if I'm asking you too much. Tell me if I'm hurting you unintentionally. Tell me if I'm taking your space. Tell me if I'm in your way. I'll get it. I'm sure I can take it. Don't worry about me... I won't be the obstacle that stops you in your life anymore.
I'll leave you alone if you want me out of your life. You just have to tell me, then I'm gone. Easy as that.
I would've known I was merely the obstacle in your way. You broke up with your bitch girlfriend 2 days ago, liked me when you were still in that wretched relationship & look where it got to us.
In the end, I was just your comfort zone. Nothing else.
You'll never know how I really feel. Not after the tiny feud. Not like you'll be reading this but, you wanna know how I feel about you? Okay.
I do like you. No. Correction. I'm in LOVE with you. What will I do? Owh. I dunno. These few days have been driving me mad that I was thinking I could keep you to myself. Because of you, I can't even think straight in whatever I do. You're somehow the obstacle in my life too but then, I didn't mind.
Because of you, I couldn't sleep last night after what happened. Why? I was blaming myself like crazy of course. Now since I already ate for sahur & I'm practically starving to death because I ate a little, I have a friggin' huge headache.
Just when I wanted to go Subang Parade with my parents & buy me a pair of earrings. I think I'll be the zombie of the group since I'll be having panda eyes (eye bags duh) for the rest of the day if I don't catch up on my sleep soon. How do you think I feel, huh? How 'well' do you think I'm taking this? I'm trying to get the words out of my head just for this since it was bothering me an hour ago.
Well, I've said what I need to. I need my sleep now. Goodnight.
shn has mixed feelings
I was getting along with my life just fine until you happened
No comments:
Post a Comment